Last night after another long day of ministry, I was driving home having a pity party and whining to God. I had to ask my neighbor to watch my kids (all of our usual babysitters were AT our church leadership meeting) and after getting them home and trying to do baths & bedtime, they were exhausted and difficult to say the least. While I was disciplining my little 2 year old because she was screaming "NO" at me, God was looking down at me and seeing me act just like my daughter. "NO! I'm tired! I don't want to do it!"
When Doug finally came home with a pile of bowls and containers to be washed from the dinner meeting, my selfishness fumed again. Instead of sacrificing for the Lord, I expected Him to serve me. The Holy Spirit revealed in a painstakingly clear way what had been growing in my heart- a lack of a sacrificial heart.
The questions I would urge us all to ask is, "Do we seek to have our own needs met, or meet others? Do we seek what's comfortable, pursue appreciation, and seek attention? Do we look for people to bless us or look for ways to bless others? Are we serving out of obligation and duty or will we serve people like we are serving God?"(pg90)
I pray that I will drop to my knees and serve my family, my church, and my gracious God more.
